Grey Boy With A Leap

Lust For Life

The Grey Boy smokes too much. He also drinks too much. He doesn't want to spend RM200 on a pair of good black leather shoes but will spend that amount and more to smoke. He used to ride on a motorbike when he could have afforded a car. He is now driving a car but he could afford better. Yet he does not.

These days the Grey Boy said that he is trying to be a vegetarian. Avoid meat where possible and when not possible (like when mother cooks delicious food and pours into his plate) he obliges by munching on the occasional piece of animal. The Grey Boy said that he was attempting to train his body to live modestly. Not to be in want or need. He eats just to fill his stomach and not to fulfill his greed. He eats to remind himself that he just need to ensure his stomach is not hungry. He doesn't need to fill it up with abalone or shrimps or lobster or chicken cordon bleu. He could eat rice and a portion of vegetable and feel satisfied.

When one thinks about the Grey Boy, the pertinent question is "Why is the Grey Boy doing all of this? What is he trying to achieve?". PY asked the same. I don't really know why the Grey Boyo does so. Maybe he wants to restrict his lifestyle and control his lust, desires and wants. Maybe he does all this and end up dreaming beautiful things and birth the most precious art.

Three Nyonyas and Frangipani,
~ Putty on wood, work in progress, 2005.

posted by Otto @ 7:54 AM